The Sound In My Mouth

Anyway, today's blog is about contribution. And fear. And other things. I hope that you'll come along.

Recently, I decided to enroll in an Anatomy and Physiology class. I am a kinesiology major, so I do need to meet lower-level requirements, pre-req's, etc. In said class, I have to enroll in a lab portion. Personally, I thought this class and lab would be fun, challenging, and interesting. Little did I know.

The first night of lab wasn't too bad as it is the usual. Go over syllabus, lab rules, look at stuff under the microscope, yada yada yada. However, the next consecutive classes, things started to change. I then found myself complaining along with the others about said about the teacher and wanting to drop lab and other things. I just could not see anything positive about anything in that lab. Or the teacher, for that matter. However, last night I realized how wrong I was.

Last night I found out my grades for the first test and some of my quizzes. Not to pretty. I was MAD. I wanted to march up to the teacher and give him a piece of my mind, among other things. I wanted to complain to the lecture teacher, administration, other classmates and my friends. A great injustice was going down!! I even called my mom after class and cried on the phone about it with her on the phone listening to me. But when I got home, I realized.

I realized that my complaining hindered me from learning. Bitterness will often do that to you. I realized that I needed to contribute. I needed to not with hold love from anyone in that class. Love is not a currency. It is a movement. It is a verb. It requires. It demands. It boldly goes forth and gives light to people. When I was complaining about the lab and the teacher, I was withholding love from it. That is wrong. The Bible says that God is love. I was holding God back from that class.

So Lord, I repent. When I am tempted to complain, let me contribute. When I mess up, let me realize. When others want to complain to me, help me to be bold enough to ask them to join me in praying for my lab and lab teacher.

And what about you dear reader? What is holding you back from contributing?